seeds wrote: ↑Sun Dec 17, 2023 12:29 am
So, at the risk of the inevitable mockery and ridicule that is sure to come my way,...
Ah yes... always plenty of that. In it's way, that too is informative and entertaining about human beings.
I really enjoyed hearing your story! Thank you for sharing it.
seeds wrote: ↑Sun Dec 17, 2023 12:30 am
At the very moment I started to feel the effects of the LSD kicking-in, the phone rang.
Oh, geez! Intense circumstance! I'm guessing that you never again answered the phone during future tripping sessions.
seeds wrote: ↑Sun Dec 17, 2023 12:30 am
I then went downstairs into the dark living room/dining room area, and with a glass-enclosed candle in my hands, I began walking in a continuous circle around the inner-perimeter of the two adjoining rooms. The LSD was now in full force.
Holy fuck!
seeds wrote: ↑Sun Dec 17, 2023 12:30 am
Then suddenly, my attention was literally drawn upward toward where one of the walls meets the high ceiling; toward what seemed to be a
"window” that was slowly opening between our "normal" dimension of reality that I was used to experiencing up to that point, and that of a transcendent dimension of reality...
Awesome! Yes, we human beings tend to think that everything we see and imagine on a daily basis is all that there is or could possibly be. But there are experiences via brain/awareness adjustments, whether by hallucinogens or not, that show OTHER dimensions that are very informative about the nature and potential of being.
seeds wrote: ↑Sun Dec 17, 2023 12:30 am
And right at that moment, an absolute
“KNOWING” was imparted to me – a knowing that Daddy Brown was safe and
not actually dead.
I get it. I've experienced that kind of absolute "KNOWING" too. Momentarily stepping through the veil that separates our limited material reality from what is so much greater than that. I don't think a person can do it or even understand a description of it while being in a dense mindset. But once you've experienced it, not only do you never forget, but the experience informs you for the rest of your life.
seeds wrote: ↑Sun Dec 17, 2023 12:30 am
a complete re-evaluation of the mundane earthly
"reality" I was so accustomed to
prior to that point.
Yes! Such a shift might seem scary (if not seeming completely unobtainable) to some people... but it is neither.
seeds wrote: ↑Sun Dec 17, 2023 12:34 am
The preceding experience had such a profound effect on me that I soon thereafter quit the diving team...(relinquishing an athletic scholarship, along with all of that temporary campus glory that a 19 year old university sophomore might enjoy...)
I was from then-on
obsessed with exploring this new-found state of being that not only opened a door to an entirely new way of looking at reality, but also made me vividly aware of the vast potential of the human mind.
Wow! Yes, it changes everything.
seeds wrote: ↑Sun Dec 17, 2023 12:34 am
Needless to say, I continued to experiment with LSD (more times than I can recall), all with the dual intent of not only being constantly amazed by its effect on my senses.../...but also as sort of a "shamanistic tool" for exploring the nature of mind and reality itself.
My 5-year experimentation period during the second half of my twenties was during my marriage (which only lasted as long as my LSD experimentation
), and my trips were always wonderful, mind-expanding flights around the Universe while listening to music or exploring outside in nature. My only negative experience was when my husband forgot who I was and started jumping on the bed naked and then wanted to run outside onto a public street. I was thrust into being a 'caretaker' of him while being in full-blown tripping mode, myself. Aside from that, is was an extraordinarily beneficial time of exploration for me.
And the importance of
what we think has continued to be demonstrated throughout my life. Thinking crap produces crap. Thinking limitless loving potential produces more of that.
seeds wrote: ↑Sun Dec 17, 2023 12:35 am
So just get a sense of this now...
...At the very moment I lay the pencil down from writing a detailed thesis of what I believed shed a clarifying light on the mystery of God and creation, I am literally visited by an incorporeal Entity who,...
...after making it quite clear to me that the universe is its mind, and that it was the owner and willful controller of the material fabric from which my body was constructed,...
...then leads me to read a verse of prophecy from Revelation that refers to a point in time on earth when
"...the mystery of God should be finished..."
This sort of experience demonstrates to me (again) how completely connected we are to that divine essence that embraces, and is accessible, by and throughout all. When we are 'vibrating' in-tune with it, we experience that greater glory (so-to-speak). I reject any notions of being separate or not good enough... which is why I reject 99% of notions of 'God', which seem to be a very shallow and narrow fabrication of mankind. For me, there is no separation or judgment from that divine essence... ONLY complete love and acceptance.
Now it occurs to me to share something with you that might give you a little smile or chuckle. A bit of explanation, first... I don't typically meditate with eyes closed like most people think of meditation -- rather, I can be in a meditative state of mind with my eyes open. But this past summer, I was taking a class in which the teacher instructed all of us to close our eyes while she led us through a meditation. She had been saying that we all have 'spirit guides'... and that they could look like animals or people... and none of this was really resonating with me. But I was trying to be cooperative and open-minded, without being led.
She asked us to see our spirit guides in our meditative state. I stared at the black canvas behind my closed eyes, and within seconds, a giant eye appeared... looking back at me. It filled my entire 'view'. I thought, 'Oh! That's interesting.'
I had NO preconceived notions... other than maybe I didn't really expect to see anything. It was a normal-looking eye... not like the Egyptian Eye (that I have tattooed on my ankle). And it wasn't just a still image, it felt like an alive presence looking back.
seeds wrote: ↑Sun Dec 17, 2023 12:36 am
the fledgling (
Ultimate Seed) theory I had been developing.../...the time has now arrived for the release and dissemination of the information that finally finishes (resolves) the
"mystery" of what God actually is.
Yes, I don't know. I might look at your theory some more. Personally, I've just gotten the sense that everything is 'fine' as it is (which flips people out when I say that).
It's hard to express experiences that seem to be beyond mundane human understanding. Telepathy would perhaps be much more efficient than describing with words. But, like you (and like many), I do my best to express what I hope might be helpful/inspiring to some.
seeds wrote: ↑Sun Dec 17, 2023 12:38 am
However, hopefully (if nothing else), people can at least now understand why I not only adamantly insist that there truly does exist a living (incorporeal) Creator of this universe...but also why I use that
"eye of the mind" icon ("eye-con") in all of my illustrations...for it is a metaphorical representation of what I experienced in my alleged ("Burning Bush-like") encounter with God, 53 years ago.
Yes, that is helpful to understand why you use the eye.
Nobody can erase or discredit these very real and profound experiences for us. We know it as vividly and truly as we know our physical human lives. And it might be experienced differently by everyone. What I love is the shared understanding beyond any of the mechanics or form.