As I had stated in the other posts and elsewhere [with you and others], the sources of the claims of your sort of divinity and altered states of consciousness are from your brain.
Your brain is definitely involved.
This you cannot deny.
The question is whether these brain activities of altered states of consciousness that you have had are,
- 1. directly and solely triggered within your own brain or
2. is connected to and triggered from an external source, e.g. a TV that receives waves transmitted from an external source, which can be omnipresent.
Even when I was only a kid, then a theist [even now as a non-theist], I have had similar experiences of altered states of consciousness that I thought was associated with the 'divine' or absolute consciousness. At one time, I thought [ignorantly] I was very special to be given such experiences then.
Being very rational oriented I did extensive and thorough research on those experiences and discovered convincingly, these altered states of consciousness are solely confined to inside my brain. I have done that since long time ago and is continually updating my thesis on this with new evidences, especially from the neurosciences.
There is a wide ranges of stimuli that can affect the internal brain of a person to generate altered states of consciousness. I have already given many reasons earlier and there are many more.
What is critical is when certain specific parts of the brain are triggered by whatever means, then one could experience altered states of consciousness which may be divine, spiritual, pleasurable or at the other end, demonic, evil, pains, emotional, sufferings, etc.
see:
Dr. Persinger's God Helmet
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8YPOTaUyvA0
The shortfall of your arguments is you are relying merely on 24 years of personal experiences which are highly subjective and opinionated, thus totally unreliable and not objective.
Your argument is;
- 1. I have 24 years of altered states of consciousness related to the divine [subjective belief and opinion]
2. No Verification and justification processes.
3. Therefore God [in your divine] exists [subjective beliefs and opinion]
If it is subjective and not objective, it cannot be objectively real.
Here is how Science turned personal subjectivities into objectivity;
- 1. Individuals have had empirical experiences EE, i.e. empirically subjective
2. Above experiences are verified within the Scientific Methods, i.e. objectified
3. Therefore EE is objectively true. [intersubjectivity].
Note 2 above is subjected to the requirements of the Scientific Framework and System of Knowledge [FSK] that entailed verifications, testing, repeatability, peer review and consensus by many recognized scientists [subjects].
In this case empirical subjective experiences are objectified via intersubjectivity, i.e. intersubjective consensus of many subjects.
As such, to ensure your claim is credible you will have to do what the scientists are doing at least to a certain degree.
In that case, you will have to perform process 2 with many others to ensure you can arrive at some objective conclusions.
But when your perform process 2 and collaborate and collect all similar experiences like yours, it is likely [as I and others had done] note that the root cause of your altered states of consciousness will originate solely from your brain, i.e. hallucinations.
E.g. I can use DMT and other triggers to repeat similar experience most of the time.
All reported cases of altered states of consciousness subjected to research has ended to its source within the brain and nothing external.
Here is one case;
Ramachandran, the Temporal Lobes and God - Part 1
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qIiIsDIkDtg
This guy experienced God directly.
Their tests discover he actually suffered from Temporal Lobe Epilepsy.
When they cured his TLE, he lost that ASC of God.
There are so many such cases.
My stroke of insight | Jill Bolte Taylor
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UyyjU8fzEYU&t=4s
Jill Bolte experienced super 'divine' experiences when she suffered a stroke. Fortunately she is a neuro_anatomists and could linked her ASC solely to her brain.
- If such an experience that happened to her, if say, 2000 years ago, and because people are ignorant of neuroscience and the likes then, she would have been accepted as a messiah or prophet and founded a religion. This could be the case with Jesus, Muhammad, St Paul and other prophets and religious founders in the dark ages of history.
You cannot depend solely on Quantum Mechanics and other theories of Physics because they as scientific theories are merely 'polished conjectures'.
Altered States of Consciousness like yours happened in a large number of people.
If only 0.01% of the nearly 8 billion people have had such experience, there would be
8 million of them around the world. I believe the actual numbers could be 1% i.e. 80 million and likely more up to 5% or 400 million experiencing different shades and degrees of ASC.
So there is no lack of samples for scientists to study them and if you take the trouble you will find there are already many research that had been done to track their causes to within the brain, i.e. mere hallucinations from various causes.