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Sun Jun 10, 2018 10:26 pm
QuantumT wrote: ↑
Sun Jun 10, 2018 10:14 pm
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Sun Jun 10, 2018 9:15 pm
Add to this, that I missed most of North American childhood, teen-age, and TV culture. Because I did not speak English up to age 28 or so, and only started to watch movies again since my late teens after I turned 45. A huge chunk of current politics, culture and trends just passed me by.
If it's not too personal a question to ask.
You can reply in a PM if you prefer that
No, I was not in prison.
I was in my own prison -- to be melodramatic about it -- which was the whole wide world, and it was still a prison. In solitary confinement. So to speak.
Might as well blurt it out in the public, since my identity is protected.
Schizophrenic breakdown at 20.
I am schizotypal. Or whatever. I can't remember the name. I am normal, until I get under stress, moderate to large stress, at which point I become delusional.
I was socially isolated, and had no peer group. Plus I immigrated from Hungary, at age 18, and never mixed with the Hungarian community. So I was pretty much a loner, living inside my head. Perfect resume for a philosopher.
I am also on the autism spectrum, and have a severe case of borderline personality disorder.
So much fun!!
oh ;-/. none of the above is good ;-/. I have close friend down the street from me (we've known each other for 20yr now - been friends for 12 or so now), who is Scizoactive(sp) - i think that is what you were refering to (sorry i can;t spell the term correctly). He suffers from mania and mild schizophrenia. He claims Depression too, but i've not noted the latter from him.
as for me, I'm fullbore Depressant - no mania no schizophrenia - but note that there is no such thing as "Willing out of" my depressionist tendencies.
I experienced that black hole 20-15 yrs ago, been out of said HB since that time, but note my personality as one of "depressant" overall - if not in the BH - thankfull that it has not sucked me into it again.
i do not take my freedom from it for granted, am thankful i;m out if it and hope to remain so.
2-cents, i think is genetics - for mania, depression and schzophrenia, i wish you well and hope you are able to defend against your genetic tendancy with a good environment and friends as much as possible.
thanks for replying to my inquary indirectly - Hungarian huh? - rem the PM who the Ruskies threw out of the ninth floor in 56? for the sake of Liberty. to die for doing right sucks for sure.