Two things I consider anathema to philosophy, Dub. Romanticism and anthropomorphism. They allow to much room for subjectivity, projecting what we wish to see, not what is.Dubious wrote: ↑Tue Aug 07, 2018 12:09 amSo would most people, I imagine, but often it's not a matter of choice. I never could figure out the merit of Dylan Thomas’s most famous line of poetry. If nature offers an easy way out it would be stupid not to take it. If you haven't got a choice it's best to keep the lullabies flowing and not the screams.Dalek Prime wrote: ↑Mon Aug 06, 2018 10:37 pm Mind, when my time comes, I do want to 'go gently into that good night', Dylsn Thomas be damned.
There are exceptions but most poets, especially modern ones are among the dumbest people on the planet.
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thanks. It was a projection, about ten years ago. I was what? about 55 when I wrote it.
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Perfect timing then. I'm just shy of 55. Do you still feel the same way you did ten years ago, when you wrote it?
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I feel more relaxed, generally, more at peace. But much more bored as well. The stakes are gone. There is no future, so it's like watching a movie now -- beyond sheer entertainment value, there is nothing left to life. LUCKILY I am set financially -- not rich by any means, but can make ends meet and I am debt free -- and luckily I scored a girlfriend three years ago who loves me dearly. But the lack of future plans is something that has created a vacuum.Dalek Prime wrote: ↑Wed Aug 08, 2018 1:02 pmPerfect timing then. I'm just shy of 55. Do you still feel the same way you did ten years ago, when you wrote it?
Funny thing is, life has become much easier, not just financially, but with getting along with people too. Just be nice to them, and they will be nice to me. That is a secret I learned much too late, and I learned it only through practice, because I moved from a busy, rude, obnoxious big city to a sweet, idyllic mid-sized town ten years ago.
My health is steadily declining, not too fast, but steadily. Luckily again, my country has free medicare, no matter what the problem is. Wait times can be long, but so far so good. I jumped the line when I was waiting for heart surgery -- stents implants -- because I got sick and was taken to emerge in a hospital where they did stents, and a guy or a person just died who had been scheduled that day, so they subbed me instead -- the next in line took too long to respond, hey, here's an excellent patient. That was lucky.
In fact, I had a pretty miserable life, considering my luck has been consistent and very high. I just always wanted more than what I had got.
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I can almost see my life paralleled in yours, -1-. I'm glad you found a good companion. I'm sure it makes things easier, in a way. I hope I find one myself, eventually, but I'm getting difficult to live with. Or in my mind, anyway.
Are you in Canada as well, -1-? I only ask because you mentioned the health care system.
Anyway, I really appreciate you sharing your experiences (and experience) with me. It does help. Thank you.
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No sweat, DP. Or Dippie.
You have to have a sense of humour when you are born onto this planet. And if you can't laugh at others, whom can you laugh at?
I am in SW Ontario... where is Canuckistan? If it's a suburb of Toronto, in the GTA, like Brampton, then run for your life. I would like to suggest Peterborough, Belville, Barrie, Kingston, London, Windsor, Hamilton, Brantford. Anything that has a university and a hospital. Except the GTA, of course. Even Sault Ste. Marie, and Sudbury, even Thunder Bay are better places to live than Toronto. Except when you are the member of a visible minority, of course. There is a lot of covert bigotry in smaller cities. It's a shame, and nobody talks about it, but it's there. Luckily it comes across only in social arrangements, no longer in career opportunities and in other official business. You can be still yelled at if you are gay, but you are no longer publicly beaten up for it. Racial discrimination is also dying off, luckily, although ever so slowly.
You have to have a sense of humour when you are born onto this planet. And if you can't laugh at others, whom can you laugh at?
I am in SW Ontario... where is Canuckistan? If it's a suburb of Toronto, in the GTA, like Brampton, then run for your life. I would like to suggest Peterborough, Belville, Barrie, Kingston, London, Windsor, Hamilton, Brantford. Anything that has a university and a hospital. Except the GTA, of course. Even Sault Ste. Marie, and Sudbury, even Thunder Bay are better places to live than Toronto. Except when you are the member of a visible minority, of course. There is a lot of covert bigotry in smaller cities. It's a shame, and nobody talks about it, but it's there. Luckily it comes across only in social arrangements, no longer in career opportunities and in other official business. You can be still yelled at if you are gay, but you are no longer publicly beaten up for it. Racial discrimination is also dying off, luckily, although ever so slowly.
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*Redacted due to oversharing.*-1- wrote: ↑Wed Aug 08, 2018 3:13 pm No sweat, DP. Or Dippie.
You have to have a sense of humour when you are born onto this planet. And if you can't laugh at others, whom can you laugh at?
I am in SW Ontario... where is Canuckistan? If it's a suburb of Toronto, in the GTA, like Brampton, then run for your life. I would like to suggest Peterborough, Belville, Barrie, Kingston, London, Windsor, Hamilton, Brantford. Anything that has a university and a hospital. Except the GTA, of course. Even Sault Ste. Marie, and Sudbury, even Thunder Bay are better places to live than Toronto. Except when you are the member of a visible minority, of course. There is a lot of covert bigotry in smaller cities. It's a shame, and nobody talks about it, but it's there. Luckily it comes across only in social arrangements, no longer in career opportunities and in other official business. You can be still yelled at if you are gay, but you are no longer publicly beaten up for it. Racial discrimination is also dying off, luckily, although ever so slowly.
Better or worse, I've spent much of my time in and around Toronto.
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A year is a long time... and it's not fair that you have to hope and wait. She needs to do the right thing for you too. It was very kind of you to help her out, but your health and peace must be considered in this arrangement too.Dalek Prime wrote: ↑Mon Aug 06, 2018 3:54 pm I think part of it is that I took in a youngish woman to help her out of a bad situation. It's coming up to a year now, and I pretty much find my privacy cramped. There is an end to this, hopefully, by next spring, but I'm finding it difficult to just be myself and relax, with her here, and am most anxiously awaiting when she flies the coup...
What will be her incentive to move? You can't let her deal all the cards, ya know?
I've often thought of taking in a roomie, but it IS a big energy suck... especially for those of us who tend to be peaceful, quiet hermits. It's different if it's a romantic partner... 'cause there are many good reasons you WANT them there. But someone who is just in your space is a responsibility/impact of a different kind.
I hope you can figure out a way to reclaim your privacy without feeling any guilt about it. You've probably done more than enough already. Tough love is good for her -- it keeps her energy moving in life too.
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She is a problem, for you. All problems are caused by self-cherishing. The truth will set you, and her, free. Tell her the truth, that it's you and not her.
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Both of us have issues living with others. And I've told her that many a time, and I've already accepted that responsibility, explicitly. I'm quite honest with myself. As for all problems being caused by 'self-cherishing', if you're referring to preferences, and the frustrations of them being undermined, I can somewhat get behind that, Walker. I can also accept that I won't get my way in many matters. Most of us can't.
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Thanks Lace. Yeah, she is beginning to realize the end is nigh. She's not keen on it, but seems more accepting of the inevitability of it.Lacewing wrote: ↑Thu Aug 09, 2018 4:05 amA year is a long time... and it's not fair that you have to hope and wait. She needs to do the right thing for you too. It was very kind of you to help her out, but your health and peace must be considered in this arrangement too.Dalek Prime wrote: ↑Mon Aug 06, 2018 3:54 pm I think part of it is that I took in a youngish woman to help her out of a bad situation. It's coming up to a year now, and I pretty much find my privacy cramped. There is an end to this, hopefully, by next spring, but I'm finding it difficult to just be myself and relax, with her here, and am most anxiously awaiting when she flies the coup...
What will be her incentive to move? You can't let her deal all the cards, ya know?
I've often thought of taking in a roomie, but it IS a big energy suck... especially for those of us who tend to be peaceful, quiet hermits. It's different if it's a romantic partner... 'cause there are many good reasons you WANT them there. But someone who is just in your space is a responsibility/impact of a different kind.
I hope you can figure out a way to reclaim your privacy without feeling any guilt about it. You've probably done more than enough already. Tough love is good for her -- it keeps her energy moving in life too.
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Existential crunch
I have absolutely no reason to be here at all.
Fuck. It's not even with sadness I say the above. It just is.
Fuck. It's not even with sadness I say the above. It just is.
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Dalek, I'm going to make some assumptions that we experience some common issues. By all means correct the misconceptions, although I think the general dynamics posited are real for many, even if not applicable to you.
For some, the main beauty of life lies in the detail of social interactions. For others, beauty largely lies in the big picture of the cosmos, nature and art.
The former group - extroverts - rule the world. They have become ever more adept at making introverts feel badly about themselves for the "crime" of finding their inspiration outside of the human fold. So then, feeling shamed and ignored for not being social enough, the introvert gives it another go. Maybe this time? Instead they find unease, embarrassment and a desperate desire to escape to the peace of trees, water features, birds and other animals. Sometimes this embarrasses them.
I personally have had MUCH more enjoyment in recent years watching the ants in my front yard doing their work than most social events. Or watching birds in flight, the different speeds, tempos, altitudes and styles. Or seeing their approaches to hassling people and dogs during nesting season. Or watching statuesque cloud formations roll by. Digging around in the lawn to remove bindi-eyes, dealing with tiny communities usually unseen. Or, reading, surfing online, posting, watching movies, or generally enjoying other people's words and works.
All of these things feels so much simpler and more pleasant than trying to deal with human social norms and strictures. In a time when people are pressured by life and social norms to make snap judgements about others, the annoyance of either being either muzzled or misunderstood becomes a strain and/or a bore. Bullshit continues to reign because any real attempt to arrive at truthfulness soon becomes too complicated to explain clearly. The moment the sincere dare try being truthful everyone puts up the "Nerd alert!" sign and you know once more that you have committed a social faux pas.
I don't think introverts should take upon themselves the blame for a disconnection that is actually based in their love of authenticity and weariness with the games one needs to play to gain others' trust. It's no one's fault, including yours. Just "stuff".
Now, what to do with it. It's pretty clear that almost nothing you can do can change anything in the big picture. That's for the few humans with near-inhuman drive and determination. Most of us don't qualify, and if we all tried it would be mayhem. Society seems to need these few leaders plus an absolute shitload of mediocre schmucks to act as conduits of energy and information through the society. Neurons. For many, the existential situation here is both noble and ignominious, powerful and impotent.
If what you do doesn't make much difference then you are more free than if you are a key player.
For some, the main beauty of life lies in the detail of social interactions. For others, beauty largely lies in the big picture of the cosmos, nature and art.
The former group - extroverts - rule the world. They have become ever more adept at making introverts feel badly about themselves for the "crime" of finding their inspiration outside of the human fold. So then, feeling shamed and ignored for not being social enough, the introvert gives it another go. Maybe this time? Instead they find unease, embarrassment and a desperate desire to escape to the peace of trees, water features, birds and other animals. Sometimes this embarrasses them.
I personally have had MUCH more enjoyment in recent years watching the ants in my front yard doing their work than most social events. Or watching birds in flight, the different speeds, tempos, altitudes and styles. Or seeing their approaches to hassling people and dogs during nesting season. Or watching statuesque cloud formations roll by. Digging around in the lawn to remove bindi-eyes, dealing with tiny communities usually unseen. Or, reading, surfing online, posting, watching movies, or generally enjoying other people's words and works.
All of these things feels so much simpler and more pleasant than trying to deal with human social norms and strictures. In a time when people are pressured by life and social norms to make snap judgements about others, the annoyance of either being either muzzled or misunderstood becomes a strain and/or a bore. Bullshit continues to reign because any real attempt to arrive at truthfulness soon becomes too complicated to explain clearly. The moment the sincere dare try being truthful everyone puts up the "Nerd alert!" sign and you know once more that you have committed a social faux pas.
I don't think introverts should take upon themselves the blame for a disconnection that is actually based in their love of authenticity and weariness with the games one needs to play to gain others' trust. It's no one's fault, including yours. Just "stuff".
Now, what to do with it. It's pretty clear that almost nothing you can do can change anything in the big picture. That's for the few humans with near-inhuman drive and determination. Most of us don't qualify, and if we all tried it would be mayhem. Society seems to need these few leaders plus an absolute shitload of mediocre schmucks to act as conduits of energy and information through the society. Neurons. For many, the existential situation here is both noble and ignominious, powerful and impotent.
If what you do doesn't make much difference then you are more free than if you are a key player.
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People who genuinely have a reason to be here, just aren't very bright..
For me it's quite some consolation though to know that no reason to live is no reason to die either, existence is just spontaneous. We do whatever we want/can with it.
For me it's quite some consolation though to know that no reason to live is no reason to die either, existence is just spontaneous. We do whatever we want/can with it.