Dontaskme wrote: ↑Wed Aug 03, 2022 12:08 pm
You do not need to overthink things like this.
It's not overthinking, it's listening. I read what you just wrote and got an odd feeling. But...and I felt like you had expressed anger about life in general and also very negative assessments of your life. And you had.
I hope that explains why I can appear to be a very paradoxical and contradictory person.
You explained it. I understand your explanation.
Because they are just my thoughts and feelings as and when they arise in me...sometimes I hate being alive, and other times I'm ok with being alive...I always speak in the moment, and in the moment, I write my feelings just as they are - how they are arising in me, in the moment.
Of course, expressing feelings as they are now, peachy. But you were writing assessments of life, in general. Abstract overviews and in a philosophy forum. And sometimes in reaction to other people's general ideas.
I never lie about my feelings and thoughts, I always tell the truth about what I am feeling in the moment.
I'm simply ok with hating being alive as I am being ok with being alive...I am never overwhelmed by my mental state of being, where my feelings and thoughts just spontaneously arise in me, I understand what they are, and so just allow them all to be there, there is never any chaos or confusion when I just allow them to be there...I'm always aware that each new day brings a different mind-set. So I am perfectly ok with the contradictory nature that is my emotional and mental inner world. I understand that I can feel like crap one day, and feel on top of the world the next day. I have no control over what I am going to feel from one minute to the next, and I love that total freedom to be.
I live a care-free life..a life that is free to embrace and fully accept any emotion or feeling that arises in my being, especially my world views...I understand that all my thoughts and feeling are sheer projections anyway, and not the way things actually are..they are just my own personal story that I project as my reality.
Whatever my opinions of life are, they will always being expressed and written in realtime. I have no regrets about any thing I have ever written or expressed on this forum, because every expression has always been a true outpouring of my inner feelings and thoughts at the time they were being written/expressed in realtime. I'm just always being myself, and I have absolutely no problem with being myself, and do not care how I am perceived by others, because I am happy just being me, no matter how 'me' appears to feel or think at any given moment, I'm ok with 'me' because that's what being 'me' is like for me, and I would not change a single thing about 'me' at all, ever. I mean how could I do that, there is no other than me.
This is not feelings:
Religion: a pursuit or interest followed with great devotion.
Love: a pursuit or interest followed with great devotion.
Reality Check: It is impossible for a man to love a woman, and a woman to love a man without loving yourself first.
To be seeking and needing love from an external source will never be available for you, why? because the real not fake you is in a constant state of isolation. No one else but you yourself alone can love you or make you happy, but you yourself. This is obvious to people who know they always live in isolation just as the universe itself is in a total state of isolation.
Waking up from the dream of separation is the return to yourself, the only self. Hardly any one wants to wake up from this dream of separation because the thought of being totally alone in the world is terrifying. But the realisation that you are alone in the world is also breath takingly beautiful.
Those who do not resist the awakening from this apparent dream of separation often find to their surprise that it was the greatest love of all, it was the end of cravings, of wants and the constant desire to have your own personal needs met by external things, namely other people.
“One of the worst things to happen in life is not getting what you want. The other worst thing is getting it.”
Always rely only on yourself for happiness, sanity, and love.
There are feelings in there: but it is making assertions about the nature of the world and reality. You are even giving advice. Taking positions.
I am not trying to trap you in a lie, but rather pointing out that when you react to people, it seems like you forget your own responses. That in a philosophy forum you give advice as if X was good, but later say nearly the opposite.
Perhaps your not in a position to give advice or tell people how things are. Maybe they will never find the other posts where you say very different things.
Your posts take a position as an authority who knows what is and what one should do and what attitudes one should have. But then other posts undermine.
If you want to express your feelings, perhaps eliminate the authority persona. And given that many of your posts, like the one quoted above, do not in the least come across as 'what you are feeling in the moment', I don't think that's really what you're doing. They are abstract, generalized and univeralized (supposed to be correct for everyone) assertions. A philosophical position or positions.