Gary Childress wrote: ↑Sun Jan 23, 2022 7:30 pm
attofishpi wrote: ↑Sun Jan 23, 2022 7:01 pm
Gary Childress wrote: ↑Sun Jan 23, 2022 3:53 pm
Elaborate on my delusions? I become hyper-religious or else start believing in alien body snatchers or lizard people inhabiting the bodies of seemingly normal people around me.
Do you find it hard to sleep when in that state of mind - as in, are you rather 'hyper-thinking'?
Yes. I find it very hard to sleep at times like that. I was awake for 5 days straight once in the hospital. No amount of the (albeit tame) tranquilizers they could give me would work. Finally, I drifted off on the 5 or 6th night or whatever and slept like a rock all through the morning.
Holy crap! Sorry to hear that. It just so happens it's 5am here, and I am feeling 'wired', can't sleep. I've got a couple of different meds to knock me out if i want, and the reason I am feeling like this is because I am not boozing! I am not having a drink until mid-March.
But ya, I am actually enjoying staying up all night and plugging away at designs for some art and stuff. I have to say, and especially since I no longer drink alcohol, I have more motivation and feel really positive - sometimes I think I might have some bi-polar to myself, but I have never truly tested to give myself an accurate way of determining since I normally hit the booze at some point - and that is the depressing shit, so will see if any depression returns without the booze. (oh yeah, I used to vape with nicotine - started smoking ciggys when I was about 30 due to shit happening, unfortunately this wanka nanny country where they want to get my tax dolllars from ciggys now require a doctor cert to get vape nicotine, so alas I returned to rollie tobacco for a while, and have given that the flick too) - so no booze - no nicotine, but I did just drop some codeine, which liver converts to morphine so feeling fluffyish right now.
I have to say, you are very open about some personal details, such as your feelings for a lady friend, and also there was something else - i remembered a couple of hrs ago, but codeine fuks my memory a tad, can't remember now. Oh yeah, I think it was you that said someone pretended to be talking to you (I think a partner (who is rather scum) to a friend or relative of yours) and was bullshitting that you were saying stuff that you weren't saying while on the phone to you.
When I read that, I just thought what a fucking low life to do that to you. (and deceive your friend\relative)
Do you drink alcohol?
Do you have interests - hobbies?