Hjarloprillar wrote:
I have been asked.
Are you evil?
Asked because.
A I'm mild aspergers and have little compassion.
B.I get on well with kids. They like me. [though this is not oft reciprocated.
Several times due to work i have undergone gov'mt screening.. i worked in a catholic school teaching computer science.]
Yet i get label .. Ped. because i think kids are very smart. Worth talking to for new perspectives alone.
I am not conventional in appearance.. tats, size, hair. One mother actually screamed and wanted cops to arrest me cause i talked to her daughter.
[the kid had lost her hair clip. she asked. can you see my hair clippy?,, thats when mom went apoplectic]
Catholics would like me i have as a single male NO porn on my machine or in my possession.
I am Celibate.
I have a bible. [and a koran]
I can read.
The opposite of the typical male.
I am continuing my study of good by asking others..
Are they evil.
How so?
How do people define Evil.?
And importantly if one is not evil.. or good.. What are they.. [the masses?]
yes very wishy washy and illdefined.. but. Interesting
Prill
Yeah...I'm evil. And if I am evil...then EVERYONE'S evil...cause I am the kindest person I know.
You want evil...I'll tell you about evil.
I would be very confrontational if I saw you speaking to my daughter...it is in my nature. I was a fucking insane chicken hawk when my kids were little. Which is why I say motherhood was not for me...I took the role of mother bear way way too seriously...I did not relax once. Not because I wanted to...but because I was driven to by nature.
However, I can tell you this...when I became confrontational ( I would not have screamed...I was more physically in your face ...you'll have to kill me if you want my child type of person) because you are innocently speaking to my child...do not give a rats ass about you...for all I cared you could be a large inanimate object that may fall on my child at any second. What I am trying to get at is you shouldn't take it personally. Most women like that have a constant fear that danger will befall their child...whether it is a large man with tats or a bookshelf or poisonous cleaning solutions. The fear is a constant thing and it is uncontrollable and a nightmare to have too much mother bear instinct.
In hindsight, I believe I should have never had children...It was too much stress watching them that closely.
I think I just should be alone...as I care too much for everyone in my life. I am too kind and concerned for people and sometimes it's not a good thing. At best people take advantage of it and at worse you interfere too much in the fabric of life and of freedom.
It is a form of evil...because sometimes doing what you think is the right thing turns out not to be in the end. But how can you judge what must be said and what will suffice as just a thought? Anything spoken or any action has consequences good and bad. Perhaps by going ballistic on you might have made her daughter think twice before getting into a car with a stranger in the future? Perhaps it made her distrust large men with tats for life? Who knows?
But who the hell can stop? How does one stop being evil in that way? I don't think we can by our very nature.
Do you think you are evil?