Think what he's referring to is Godmode. When in godmode you look down at the ants listening to their Lady Gaga, playing their silly games, Going to their sh*tty job and hearing their corny jokes at the dinner table. It's like seeing an ape roll a rock around in the middle of a desert, breaking his back to do so.Blaggard wrote: In every toil man is absurd and in every endeavour he is struggling, but every man can find a way to put the rock down.
Well it's just sickening and pathetic.
But what else is there to do? As what does a God do but sit around all day and do nothing. What a miserable thing in deed. Sometimes the God must splash herself into the water and dumb herself down to the ape's level to have any fun at all. Though, it's still not even fun at all hardly.
Thus, the God is filled with suicidal thoughts.