Death and Living
Posted: Tue Sep 20, 2016 6:22 am
I don't understand the meaning behind a finite and mortal life really. All I can do is come up with possibilities, but only in death will I hopefully find the answers I seek. Someone once said that everything happens for a reason, and when you find out why it will blow your mind. I hope there is some profound and greater reason for our existence. Life would seem kind of pointless without some purpose and meaning to it. Eat, procreate, sleep, clean, move, defecate, amuse yourself, work, did I forget anything? Those things seem like the basics of living. The simplicity of a lifestyle is almost boring and repetitive. I seek something greater out of life.
I often think we are alive just for amusement of a being or beings greater than ourselves. Maybe we are all part of one organism, much like the blood and cells are a part of us. Then again, maybe this is all some kind of game and the actual us are playing it on varying difficulties. I must have turned the difficulty up to about seven out of ten. I'd like to think the purpose of life is to experience pain, suffering, pleasure, and happiness. Experiencing all those things can lead one to an understanding about one's existence.
Where there is a winner, there is a loser. When someone commits to someone else, they deny other people attention and such. In order to survive, at least so far, one needs to inflict pain, suffering, and/or death on another organism. Everything we do has an impact on the world and organisms in it. It almost seems selfish to me to want to live like this. In fact, in my opinion most of us are guilty of being selfish if I think about life like that. We are all just bio machines trying to pass on our DNA to future generations. Almost everything we do if we are not at a certain point of enlightenment is to enhance our ability to reproduce. Sure there is some self enjoyment we get out of the things we have and the stuff we do, but why do we enjoy it? Because we are built to enjoy winning and being better than other people.
I think I have taken a different course, I want to end at least my own reproductive intentions and become something more pure of action and thought. However, I am only human and such a thing is hard for me. I get lonely, depressed, and angry at the world around me because I see the primal and evil basis in it. Part of the reason I have taken it upon myself to become an example is I am already a loser to begin with. I was destined to be alone and not reproduce. So naturally my thoughts lean towards things people don't often think about. because they don't have to think about them.
If I could, I would destroy all existence, leaving nothing, not even thought. Imagine how peaceful things would be. However, it is not my place to destroy the lives of those who are happy within it. I am the one who is miserable, and many others are as well. I wish I could just not exist. Is that really so much to ask for? Are losers created just to appease some sadistic sense of satisfaction for winners? Is that why we exist? I am the bottom of the totem pole, and I do not like being stuck there.
Why live a life of oppression under the strong, smart, and beautiful?
I often think we are alive just for amusement of a being or beings greater than ourselves. Maybe we are all part of one organism, much like the blood and cells are a part of us. Then again, maybe this is all some kind of game and the actual us are playing it on varying difficulties. I must have turned the difficulty up to about seven out of ten. I'd like to think the purpose of life is to experience pain, suffering, pleasure, and happiness. Experiencing all those things can lead one to an understanding about one's existence.
Where there is a winner, there is a loser. When someone commits to someone else, they deny other people attention and such. In order to survive, at least so far, one needs to inflict pain, suffering, and/or death on another organism. Everything we do has an impact on the world and organisms in it. It almost seems selfish to me to want to live like this. In fact, in my opinion most of us are guilty of being selfish if I think about life like that. We are all just bio machines trying to pass on our DNA to future generations. Almost everything we do if we are not at a certain point of enlightenment is to enhance our ability to reproduce. Sure there is some self enjoyment we get out of the things we have and the stuff we do, but why do we enjoy it? Because we are built to enjoy winning and being better than other people.
I think I have taken a different course, I want to end at least my own reproductive intentions and become something more pure of action and thought. However, I am only human and such a thing is hard for me. I get lonely, depressed, and angry at the world around me because I see the primal and evil basis in it. Part of the reason I have taken it upon myself to become an example is I am already a loser to begin with. I was destined to be alone and not reproduce. So naturally my thoughts lean towards things people don't often think about. because they don't have to think about them.
If I could, I would destroy all existence, leaving nothing, not even thought. Imagine how peaceful things would be. However, it is not my place to destroy the lives of those who are happy within it. I am the one who is miserable, and many others are as well. I wish I could just not exist. Is that really so much to ask for? Are losers created just to appease some sadistic sense of satisfaction for winners? Is that why we exist? I am the bottom of the totem pole, and I do not like being stuck there.
Why live a life of oppression under the strong, smart, and beautiful?